Who I Was Before I Embodied My Feminine
If your body could speak about the years it spent in masculine overdrive… what would she say to you?
Mine once said : I’m tired. I’ve been holding too much for too long.
And the truth is—I didn’t even know how disconnected I had become.
Because we’re not taught to notice that disconnection. We’re taught to normalize it.
We live in a world that rewards the masculine: doing, pushing, producing, proving.
And as women, we’ve been conditioned to match that rhythm—often at the expense of our own well-being.
So many of us are stuck in overdrive
We override our intuition
We silence our emotional needs
We grip tightly to control because we’re scared that if we don’t, it will all fall apart
We call it “getting things done,” but what we’re really doing is abandoning ourselves—over and over again
I lived there for years. On paper, everything looked amazing. But my body told the truth.
I was anxious. Chronically fatigued. Disconnected from pleasure. Numb to joy. I was operating entirely from my masculine.
And while the masculine has a sacred place, it was never meant to lead all the time. It was never meant to replace your feminine—your softness, your intuition, your radiance, your truth.
What I’ve learned is that when we live only from our masculine, we cut ourselves off from our bodies.
We cut ourselves off from feeling.
From trust and the quiet power that comes from simply being.
But the moment I gave myself permission to soften, everything began to change.
I started listening to my body instead of fighting her
I began to move slower—not out of laziness, but out of reverence
I created safety within myself—and from that safety, I began to truly bloom
That’s what the Divine Feminine and True Essence retreats are all about. They’re not about escaping your life—they’re about finally returning to yourself.
These retreats are for the woman who’s ready to come home to her body. To reclaim her softness, her wholeness, and her true essence.
This work changed everything for me.
This is what I looked like before I aligned with my femininity and true essence:
I was always “on” — productive, polished, in control
My nervous system was wired, even in rest
I micromanaged everything — my emotions, my body, my path
I was constantly achieving, but rarely feeling
My joy felt muted, my body felt tight, and I didn’t feel safe to just be
I wore confidence like armor—but underneath, I was exhausted
And here’s what I look like now—aligned with my femininity and true essence:
My body is soft, but strong—and I trust her
I move from presence, not performance
I let myself be seen—messy, radiant, whole
My joy is louder. My nervous system is calm. I no longer live in defense.
I’m no longer gripping—I’m receiving
I feel rooted in who I am, and safe in my own skin
This is what happens when you stop living in a constant state of overdrive, when you come home to your feminine, and when you return to your true essence.
This transformation is more than skin deep… and I want you to know that it’s available to you too.
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